There is no grace: there is no guilt:

This is the Law: DO WHAT THOU WILT!

personal banner has changed. we are no longer

let people fail

we need to be nice to each other and take care of each other, or, at least, take care of those who have always done right by us

Currently trying optimize for *not* dropping dead from fatigue like a horse that has been run to death.

St John's Wort actually works as a monamine reuptake inhibitor. It's scarily powerful but yields none of the hellish side effects of pharmaceutical SSRI drugs.

I just want more neurotransmitters, bro. I don't want to feel like a corpse that died from lack of fulfillment.

i am now using rym because finding new music when your consumption methods are ripped CDs and soulseek bootlegs is difficult. not that spotify is any better at relevancy.

send emails if you want to trade recommendations.

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I HATE THE KALI YUGA

I HATE THE KALI YUGA

All internet interactions are purely solipsostic until proven in flesh and bones.

nothing exixts outside of your head||only the internet exists inside of your head

go outside

Truly, now more than ever, we are experiencing life in the aeon of Horus.

Where is Isis? Where is Osiris?
Horus, Horus, only Horus - the crowned and conquering child

Working on the backend for a personal site. 0x19 was intended to be purely technical but I have been thoroughly disenchanted with technology and the intentions are being violated.

Blogging is dead. Long live blogging.

"Why do anything at all if it's all purposeless?" and "what is the purpose if there is no one to share it with?"

The internet is a false god. The great information equalizer and surrogate for socialization has failed. We only foolishly assigned it this role.

Silos, or, eternal solitude within the company of friends - the internet cannot remedy the issues inherent to the human condition.

Maybe I will resign myself to total insanity. The proposed theories have solidified themselves as axioms. Philosophy is broken men trying to understand the world. No well adjusted and healthy adult spends their entire life thinking about thinking.

Who needs 8-10? Narcoleptic microsleeps are "more efficient".

Does anyone remember that quote from Uriel (or someone else related/included on Cat-V.org) where he says something along the lines of:

The problem is that they are trying to use administrative solutions for human peoblems

I almost feel bad for these guys. Their diet used to be plants, insects, fish, birds, and small mammals. Now, their diet is actual garbage.

I wonder how they are doing if the rest of us have been rendered hypogonadal from the ubiquitous microplastics and endocrine disruptors.

Even with my own dairy based autism diet, I fear the prevalence of growth hormones and antibiotics will prove to be more harmful than it was worth.

Insanity is emphatically asserting that every single period in history before today was absolute hell. Insanity is claiming, without being hyperbolic, that your grandfather's life was miserable because he did not have internet pornography, doordash, sodomite rights, multicultiralism enforced at the tip of a bayonet, constant psyops and demoralization campaigns, etc.

I am the raccoon. Population density is a scourge upon this earth. Grandaddy had a milk cow and the raccoon's, a wholly organic diet. I would trade it all for a milk cow.

Deciding which hills you will literally die on is a powerful but strange feeling.

Some may call it a martyr's fantasy but I propose the opposite. You might be a redditor if there is no context where "you will actually have to kill me if you want to accomplish xyz because I will to everything in my power to prevent it" is true.

Maybe "duty" is a more appropriate word but it lacks the mystical implications.

Everyone is afraid of le youtube sleep paralysis demons.

Wait until they find out about trying to sleep off a migraine after the ibuprofen and caffeine fails.

i am feeling like a hypochondriac again.

Binding of Isaac *something's wrong* pill effect plays

@sizeof(cat) I'm still on firefox+friends after all these years. Old habits die hard + maybe the true scam all along was larping on tor browser so long that gtk support is no longer negotiable.

/spam

My Thinkpad T490 died about a month ago. It won't post. Yes, I hit the secret reset button. Please email me if you know arcane conjurations for this specific machine.

I have been running my x220 for about a month without any major issues. No matter how much I enjoy OpenBSD, I actually went with Fedora + Xfce because I wanted to easily access my data strewn across [too many] disks with Linux specific filesystems.

Moore's law is dead and has been since 2012. You don't need better hardware. You need better software.

My goal is partially based in spite but the purpose is to remedy my total and absolute lack of music theory. I want to teach myself using the Feynman Technique (which is essentially autodidactism through rubber duck debugging + attempting to teach something you do not yet know). I intend to write a

man page

• Pitch


• Scales and Modes


• Consonance and Dissonance


• Rhythm


• Melody


• Chords


• Timbre

\u0009

\u0009
• Dynamics

\u0009
• Articulation

\u0009


• Texture


• Structure


• Expression


• Notation

The Mountain Goats - Cry For Judas

I am conflicted. I can't decide if I share my last two years of recorded dreams or not. It's not that any are notably embarrassing or private but that I have had almost exclusively "nightmares" (for lack of a better term).

Maybe the dream notebook program with metadata collection and analysis features will exist someday but that day is not today.

Exporting a json/csv of messages from the signal desktop database is too easy.

Perhaps digital communication was a mistake.

You get used to it. Eventually, you begin to tolerate the constant discomfort. Ultimately, you feel naked without it. The shakiness and anxiety fade as threat models and contingency plans come into focus. Slowly, your perspective shifts. You are always aware, always looking at the smallest movements in your peripheral vision, always looking towards every barely perceptible sound.

I think that the advantage is not necessarily the gun itself but the implications.

I am (and have been) taking a break from computers in general over the last few months. I am alive and well, dear friends.

The bulk of the "irl bullshit" has passed.

Over the last few months, I have been practicing shooting, lifting, and focusing on optimizing my sleep. I have also been fixing more cars and diesel engines lately which, as of late, has been more rewarding than computers. I am still running 100% open source software despite the dissatisfaction I experience while being at computers.

0x19 will likely remain partially abandoned until I find inspiration again. I feel like I have done everything that is possible already and computers have stopped bringing me any joy.

The only remotely computer related project I am interested in is figuring out how to create a text based (or vn) game using my {vivid,haunting,dread inducing,bizarre,immersive} dreams (that I am still too lazy to record) as an inspiration for the story. This, however, is largely a pipe dream. I am neither creative nor artistic which adequately explains the dream scrying in an attempt to levy the ineffable.

My philosophy as of late is simple: "do better every day", "let people fail", "it's not your job to fix the world, it's your job to defend yourself", "maintain your paradigm", "maintain your morals", "don't get stuck", "don't be a crab in a bucket", and "just because you feel constant lethargy, malaise, and anhedonia doesn't mean that you can submit to letting yourself rot."

We are so fucking back, it's not even funny.

I have vague memories of reading about how the sword must actually be a bladed implement because the various spirits of the earth and demons will be unresponsive to a pistol. The purpose of the sword is to cut and to criticize. So long as the magical weapon is not a shotgun, gun seems viable.

If lead is the issue, real silver bullets do exist. Copper bullets also do exist. Depleted uranium rounds are federally illegal but they would also qualify as "a pure metal that is a higher tier than lead and thus not influenced by the spirits" in this context.

Lost Dog Street Band, "Coming Down," featuring Thirteen Strings and a Two Dollar Bill // Take Away - Youtube link to a live recording (because I require that SOVL)

The same song on bandcamp, for purchase

At first, I didn't think this was a very good song. Upon listening more closely, it was incredibly moving. This version has an evolving chorus which was incredibly compelling to me. The change of a single word entirely drives the decline from dopesick and desperate to delirious and withdrawing.

Upon the first iteration of the chorus:

And in my dreams, there's a needle and spoon,
And there's a pair of dice, a loaded gun, maybe me and you
And you're sawing on a fiddle and I'm wondering which to choose
Everything's so complicated now I am coming down

And in my dreams, there's a needle and spoon,
And there's a pair of dice, a loaded gun, maybe me and you
And you're sawing on a fiddle and I'm wondering which to shoot
Everything's so complicated now I am coming down

The CIA's Scariest Weapon - a link to a youtube video about the CIA heart attack gun

Where do I buy one? /s

stay strapped, boys

My misanthropy levels have reached an all time high.

Do right by others.
Speak only the truth.
Hold onto your paradigm and do not allow others to lead you into delusion.
Be charitable when possible.
Strive towards self sufficiency.
Do all of these things and you still get screwed over.

I am not mad. I am not feeling vindictive. We are living in a low trust world with high trust morality. I am increasingly weary of moochers, freeloaders, and manipulators. They always seem to go ballistic as soon as you stop catering to their every whinging whim.

I am wanting to write a post about the music albums I listened to this year. There aren't many (6) so I don't think it will be worth the effort of re-listening in order to write a competent review.

The last 3 years have been filled with silence and the occasional podcast to stimulate my brain. I try to listen to whole albums. Listen 1 is new information, listen 2 is a deeper listening, listen 3 is for enjoyment, and on listen 4+ the track skipping begins. When I find myself skipping tracks I stop listening to the album because there is no new information to be gleaned. At listen 5+ the music becomes annoying and, frustratingly, loathsome.

The ability to listen to music constantly no matter the context is an entirely foreign concept. I do not understand how others accomplish this feat while maintaining sanity.

For me, it's silence.

Added a usbc -> usba adapter and a wireless USB keyboard to the android based shitposting stack.

> More peripherals! Then I will be happy!

Really, I find myself spending more time AFK and touch screen keyboards are too inaccurate and slow to reliably record ideas with a half life of 5 seconds.

I remember when soylent launched. Although it is posible to power a human using exclusively industrial chemicals, the state of California will never be happy about it.

DIY nutrient slop also exists. Many recipes exist and can be found at www.completefoods.co

I am currently thinking about the possibility of a potato based diet supplemented with vitamin tablets, minerals, and amino acids.

Pigeons have magnets in their brains

I only have worms in mine

I don't think I ever actually wrote something about this. I need to write a post about this. The only reason I didn't is because I didn't want to mess with the Linuxulator on FreeBSD and, later, because I didn't want to attempt to build Proton bridge from source. On linux, it seems to work file.

I might try to build it again on {free,open}bsd to try to remember what the issue was.

Here are a list of ports <1024 that are not associated with any service:

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Rubber duck debugging except the duck is vim. A title change might be in order. Possibly "'Roll-Your-Own' Webring".

Possible requirements:  
- real hardware or vps, rented or owned
- proof of domain ownership (a bs dns record would work)
- proof you have root on the server (I can't figure this one out)
- 1 year of site activity (so you are already invested)
- tell the OS and why you chose it
- describe the server stack and why you chose it
- include any additional daemons running on the system

Considering:
- badges (for lack of a better term)
        - for founders (this will be contested)
        - for each daemon you are running beyond httpd (ie gopher, tor, i2pd, email, xmpp, etc)
        - for custom code (ie "Custom SSG" or "Custom server side scripts")
        - for custom daemons you wrote yourself (ie custom finger, gopher, httpd, etc)
- git managed
        - can't^won't self host git because a git forge is useless without other users
        - probably gitlab
        - no actual server code included in the repo, only member site data (debatable)

I am now storing a .sql file instead of the actual sqlite3 database. Makefile rules to dump/resilver the database have been added. This should be nicer to git.

V: 18
AH: 5
Wh: 90
A: ???

 
V: 18
A: 20
W: 360

Certain cordless power tools do not have an official option to replace the battery with a cable. The ability to do this effectively turns the tool into a corded tool. I might look into building custom power supplies for said tools. This could probably be accomplished with commodity hardware and a couple of cheap, sacrificial Chinese bootleg batteries. An inline circuit breaker would be extremely useful to prevent repeated trips to the breaker box. No other useful features immediately come to mind.

I forgot to link to the tagmap page. I might change the font scaling to be 100+(percent of tags that are this tag)%.

MIKU MIKU OOO EEE OOO

Behold, the solution to the American public transportation issue: Hi-Rail vehicles. Hydraulic rams, steering lockout, and some system to do data transfer between the ECU to automatically set a speed entirely solves my disdain for and disillusionment in relation to driving without forcing me into a crowded box with the dredges of American society.

A more optimal solution would be passenger trains with a ticket cost at ~$0.15/mile (comparable to gasoline prices in an efficient car) so that overcrowding does not occur. At these prices, only the most sleep deprived would actually consider it. This will never happen. I will continue to pray for the pipe dream of Hi-Rail automated highways.

"Multiphasic sleep cycles and lucid dream states: a stimulant induced approach"

Not everything must have a use case. We are allowed to have fun things.

Using a makefile to write new posts. I'm almost surprised my checks to kill the script if the SAPI != "cli" even works with this many layers of scripts calling scripts calling scripts.

Makefile:

new: 
\u0009php -r 'include "sqlite.php"; new_post();'

I wanted to keep it as simple as possible bit I realized I only had two choices: write clean code that does not scale or buckle and use a real database. Descent. Delusion even. I am not having fun with PDO.

Currently, I am typing the entire html that will get me to the asset I want. I may or may not modify the post creation script to prompt for media type before inserting it into a boilerplate line of html.

This is a smaller version of microblogging.